They (oh the vague, anonymous 'they') say things are supposed to get better with time. I have found that this is not always true. Granted, when particularly close to a problem, it can seem overwhelming... so it was almost a blessing that as a family member fell apart, I started the #100HappyDays challenge. The idea is to take a picture every day of something that makes me happy, which is supposed to not only make me happier but also appreciate those things and occasions even more... and after a week, a trend is emerging - my kids are most of the pictures!
Haha, like I didn't know that, right? But the girls, as stressed out and tired as they make me, give me larger moments than I had previously thought about... it's amazing to me how much I was complaining about something that they were doing wrong and not talking about all the awesome stuff that was Right! Like Peanut drives me mad at times with her tantrums and willful stubborn moments, but on the flip side she is such a good "Little Mommy" with cuddles and singing and changing pants of her favorite toys. BooBoo is practicing for Olympic Gymnastics whenever the Separation Anxiety doesn't have have her, but is the cuddliest and most adventuresome loveamuff ever - yes, the very things that freak me out and worry and bother me are the traits I love best... when she's not in danger or Mommy isn't trying to get something non-BooBoo-involving done.
My SIL's life imploded last week while her family was on vacation. Being the awesome brother Ryuu is, he tried to help. She has since surprised us with aspects and additional necessities and... such... to the point where I am stressed, he is worried about the girls and me, Peanut is getting TOO attached to her two very large puppies... and BooBoo was dragged around the other day for the sole purpose of attending to her dogs [vet and grooming appointments we didn't know about that needed my car since her rental was 'no dogs'] when the reason SIL came over in the first place was to finish cleaning the mess she made during her 2 night stay. Arg. Arg arg arg. Double-arg, Triple-arg, Migraine, Nightmares, Eye Twitch.
I've been learning how to use the Boye looms to make blankets and hats. Very Exciting projecting. The hard part is not including the frustration and negativity that I'm feeling, so I've been trying to increase the time spent in prayers and meditations. Of course, using the Serenity Prayer as my focus probably also helps a great deal... I think I need to also put a bigger priority into getting back into 'Shape' as I just passed a big mile stone without really trying and am starting to need the endorphins that being healthier brings, especially with the upheaval my family is and will undoubtedly continue going through in the near future...
The Progress Bar hasn't really changed at all this week - same-ish places on those pieces, worked on other knitting and crochet projects ~ hardest part working on anything is making sure totally clean so no dog hair or oil or anything transfers to the projects. As for games, not too much on that front either... between the crisis of SIL and normal "Two and Teething" day to day, the fact I sleep at all (though not well) is a miracle. Finished Banjo Kazooie - Mad Monster Mansion to end, but that's been my time all week. Sorry it's been so dull lately on this end; so much Mommy, so little ... anyway.
Peace, Love, and Pixie Stix!
Friday, March 21, 2014
Wednesday, March 12, 2014
Tough Day in Paradise
This spring is insane already - I have so much to do and only so much time, which is typical for Mommy but not entirely always appreciated.
Not only is BooBoo attempting to try out for Olympic Gymnastics 2030 off of every surface in my house (couch, coffee table, Peanut's bed when I take a rice cake from her) and trying to electrocute herself and her sister by watering Mommy's computer with the fry water ~ long story, but with them both being That Age (Two and Teething) it can be a little frustrating. Sometimes I just want a moment to myself without the screaming and crying they both love to assail me with. Being with them all the time is such a blessing, but it's work... tons and tons of work. Tired is so not the right word.
I also have been approached to start Another at home business. This also exhausts me. I've already tried two and not done very well, which really is my fault. . . It seems that I join, do pretty to very well, then another baby comes along and I have to pour all my love and effort into them. When asked to visualize and come up with a dream that would motivate me through anything, I think of how great my life is right now - a lot of my dreams are so far off that it's hard to concentrate on anything more. Granted, when I ask of my 'support system' "why are they approaching me", it's also difficult to get excited when the answer I get is 'a warm body with 2 kids, plenty of time, and a probable need for money'. Shoot, no wonder I want to do my own thing where I can do what I love on my - and my girls' - time schedule
Now that those small issue has been aired, time for this week's fabulousness <3 I have a commission! My wonderful friend for whom I am learning to crochet wishes me to make something for a friend due around the same time! I'm totally excited, and not sure what I want to do... I think baby blankets will probably be tops, but also planning to make some cross stitch samplers for the site that can be personalized for the customer. I am about half way though an iPhone 5 case, plan to finish my mom's project in time for her upcoming birthday, and have charted out the perfect project for a friend who is getting married next month!
I have to admit, I'm a little self conscious that my breastfeeding self will be "that fat lady" in the photos since I'm a bridesmaid. However, it's not that big a deal in the long run and she loves me for who I am and probably already knows. Most importantly, it's an amazing day for an even more amazing lady and her wonderful family. And so not about me, my lingering baby poundage, or my insecurities. It'll be fab!
Progress Bar:
Sunday Mystery Sampler - still bordering the black, not really tracking by weeks on white but done with angels, stars, and the shepherd "I'm coming, Jesus' Parents!" (I'm doing two, one with each pattern - black is MSII, White is MS)r
Peanut's - ~24%? (about to start the bottom Bunny and block )
BooBoo's - not started
games... not really been working on at all this week since I've been catching up on our Netflix, cleaning the DVR after bedtime, and going for more scratch cooked food <3 But I did manage to clear Episode One in Lego Star Wars with Ryuu
Love and Peace, Y'all!
Not only is BooBoo attempting to try out for Olympic Gymnastics 2030 off of every surface in my house (couch, coffee table, Peanut's bed when I take a rice cake from her) and trying to electrocute herself and her sister by watering Mommy's computer with the fry water ~ long story, but with them both being That Age (Two and Teething) it can be a little frustrating. Sometimes I just want a moment to myself without the screaming and crying they both love to assail me with. Being with them all the time is such a blessing, but it's work... tons and tons of work. Tired is so not the right word.
I also have been approached to start Another at home business. This also exhausts me. I've already tried two and not done very well, which really is my fault. . . It seems that I join, do pretty to very well, then another baby comes along and I have to pour all my love and effort into them. When asked to visualize and come up with a dream that would motivate me through anything, I think of how great my life is right now - a lot of my dreams are so far off that it's hard to concentrate on anything more. Granted, when I ask of my 'support system' "why are they approaching me", it's also difficult to get excited when the answer I get is 'a warm body with 2 kids, plenty of time, and a probable need for money'. Shoot, no wonder I want to do my own thing where I can do what I love on my - and my girls' - time schedule
Now that those small issue has been aired, time for this week's fabulousness <3 I have a commission! My wonderful friend for whom I am learning to crochet wishes me to make something for a friend due around the same time! I'm totally excited, and not sure what I want to do... I think baby blankets will probably be tops, but also planning to make some cross stitch samplers for the site that can be personalized for the customer. I am about half way though an iPhone 5 case, plan to finish my mom's project in time for her upcoming birthday, and have charted out the perfect project for a friend who is getting married next month!
I have to admit, I'm a little self conscious that my breastfeeding self will be "that fat lady" in the photos since I'm a bridesmaid. However, it's not that big a deal in the long run and she loves me for who I am and probably already knows. Most importantly, it's an amazing day for an even more amazing lady and her wonderful family. And so not about me, my lingering baby poundage, or my insecurities. It'll be fab!
Progress Bar:
Sunday Mystery Sampler - still bordering the black, not really tracking by weeks on white but done with angels, stars, and the shepherd "I'm coming, Jesus' Parents!" (I'm doing two, one with each pattern - black is MSII, White is MS)r
Peanut's - ~24%? (about to start the bottom Bunny and block )
BooBoo's - not started
games... not really been working on at all this week since I've been catching up on our Netflix, cleaning the DVR after bedtime, and going for more scratch cooked food <3 But I did manage to clear Episode One in Lego Star Wars with Ryuu
Love and Peace, Y'all!
Saturday, March 1, 2014
Clothes, Clothes, and More Clothes
Ah the SemiAnnual clothing swap. You know the one... the kids grow out of the current batch and need to have a rotation. When they're older, and for grown ups, this changes to seasonal where the long sleeves go out and the short come in, but little ones grow out of everything so fast! The good thing: I have more than one of the same gender. The bad thing: it's still a pain to do. I told everyone asking what the baby needed to get Peanut more clothes so BooBoo could grow into them. Still, I have a horde of baby clothes and not terribly many toddler (though I suspect that has more to do with the laundry basket than anything else).
The funniest part of the toddler tantrums is that Peanut has the words... it's easy to forget the emotions of a toddler are not that of any other age group when that's the case. A Tall Smart Geekling who just needs to get bigger and older, poor thing.
So the weirdest thing is that a book I started reading, sure I never had before, is seeming very familiar. I'm sure I wouldn't have Not finished it, but I didn't remember it. So I flipped ahead, and don't remember that bit either... My conclusion is that 1. I read it and Peanut and BooBoo sapped my brain (not unbelievable) or 2. I read something very similar recently and am delusional.
So a thought occurred just now - what would you like to see us produce from our Etsy shop? Considering we're open to just about anything, including personalization, we'd love feedback!
Progress Bar:
Progress Bar:
Sunday Mystery Sampler - still bordering the black, not really tracking by weeks on white but done with angels and going for Mary and Joseph (I'm doing two, one with each pattern - black is MSII, White is MS)
Peanut's - ~24%? (about to start the bottom Bunny and block )
BooBoo's - not started
Gale of Darkness - 50% story with lots more to go
The funniest part of the toddler tantrums is that Peanut has the words... it's easy to forget the emotions of a toddler are not that of any other age group when that's the case. A Tall Smart Geekling who just needs to get bigger and older, poor thing.
So the weirdest thing is that a book I started reading, sure I never had before, is seeming very familiar. I'm sure I wouldn't have Not finished it, but I didn't remember it. So I flipped ahead, and don't remember that bit either... My conclusion is that 1. I read it and Peanut and BooBoo sapped my brain (not unbelievable) or 2. I read something very similar recently and am delusional.
So a thought occurred just now - what would you like to see us produce from our Etsy shop? Considering we're open to just about anything, including personalization, we'd love feedback!
Progress Bar:
Progress Bar:
Sunday Mystery Sampler - still bordering the black, not really tracking by weeks on white but done with angels and going for Mary and Joseph (I'm doing two, one with each pattern - black is MSII, White is MS)
Peanut's - ~24%? (about to start the bottom Bunny and block )
BooBoo's - not started
Gale of Darkness - 50% story with lots more to go
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