Being SuperMommy in the Midst of Drama

This post is a bit of a downer and starts a little more seriously than some of my others. It is no secret that when a baby is born, most if not all parents look at their kids and want more for them - more love, more peace... a better life in whatever way possible and in whatever is valued by them. You want to protect them from the evils of the world, no matter where that resides. 

Most of the time, what you see is what you get - I'm that extroverted introvert that loves to brag on her monkeys, update about projects and games that are going well, do a little bit of venting on the side... but lately, my stress level has been through the roof and I have found myself with a temper shorter than a birthday candle wick attached to dynamite. 

The good thing is that I hate it and can control myself from doing more than the loud roar and/or snatching them from dangerous activities. The bad thing is that the tireder I get, the more I feel overwhelmed by the sheer amount of attention and work goes into being "SuperMommy" (which, of course, is my ultimate goal :) ).

And it's not just the stresses of being Mom that are getting to me. As I mentioned a few weeks ago, my sister-in-law's life has fallen apart, and it really is all her fault. Maybe her roommates (?) are druggy jerks who steal her food and walk in whenever. Maybe having a boyfriend, who nearly twice her age, with kids about half isn't all that horrid (a little gross in my opinion, but whatever). Maybe she's just really unlucky when it comes to cars wrecking and the police catching her speeding. Maybe her giant hybrid dogs really are a "bonded pair" and she's just looking for a new home for herself and them. ... Maybe... Or maybe she's just what she's always been - a sick and dangerous individual who takes advantage of her nice family who just want to help. She's my husband's sister, and as such we have done what we can - we let her stay a few nights, he drives her to work since she's probably going to be without a licence as well as a vehicle, we're watching her dogs for a few weeks (and getting paid for it) - but it's getting to be too much. The biggest problem, though people doubt it'll really get to this point, is that I'm a mom and she's proven herself dangerous. Having let her stay with us and watching her dogs, obviously she knows where we live... And due to her illness, for she is mentally ill, she will always blame me when her brother says "no." We have two kids! Since she hasn't done anything 'recently' or against us, I also doubt we could legally do anything to keep her away. The stress and worry is starting to take a toll on my health as well as my already stressed patience.

And then there's Moms by Design... where do I even start? My business partner is a lovely woman who has had some ill fortune as well as some rather serious consequences for choices she's made. It is therefore both a good and bad thing that she has decided to bow out, at least for now, from it - good because it's already set up (including Facebook) and bad because now it weighs more heavily on my shoulders to crank out what I can, if I can.

I've had to take a small break from projects for it, on that note, to do some for upcoming events - my white SMS is nearly done for my mom <3 and blocked out a project for my friend's wedding. Already have everything set up to help make her weekend totally magical (or so I hope) with shoe shopping left.

On that note, I'd like to mention something that really 'grinds my gears'... the stereotype "gamers" work at Walmart's while living with our folks forever. Unfortunately, stereotypes are based on truth so while Ryuu works with Technology and another one of my friends practices Law... one of my cousins is doing precisely that. After getting an accounting degree, from what my mom says, he decided not to do anything with it  because it wasn't "enjoyable". So today I saw he has a live gaming account (a "twitch") going for Assassin's Creed 3 mutiplayer and from there find his youtube (might as well pass on in hopes it will interest someone), thinking "hmm,  I wonder if he's making money that way." After all, we know of people on youtube who actually make a living that way. And if he was, I thought I'd subscribe to help since it's part views and part subscribers... He only does AC multiplay sessions for his channel anyway so unless he's like winning Ubisoft-sanctioned tournaments or something, there's no money in this for him. So while I hate how it makes the rest of us gamers look bad to ignore a degree to live at home and stock for Wally's, I am at least glad he is having fun with his friends. Personally though, I choose to not even get a Xbox Gold membership since I get enough multiplayer joy locally or watching Ryuu play (and giggle at the trolls while he's all frustrated).

Progress Bar:
Sunday Mystery Sampler - still bordering the black, only border left on white (I'm doing two, one with each pattern - black is MSII, White is MS)
Peanut's - ~24%? (about to start the bottom Bunny and block )
BooBoo's - not started

Knitting Looming a blanket for the Etsy and Crocheting a baby blanket for a friend. Just got some new quilting stuff as well as both instruction books and some fun fiction the other day :)

Games... did Animal Crossing New Leaf's April Fools Day, Dokapon Kingdom with Ryuu, just finished Grunty Industries on Banjo Tooie

Sorry today was kind of Negative Nancy... It's been a long couple of weeks and the other day (April Fool's), I was kind of wishing that life was just "punk-ing" me.