They (oh the vague, anonymous 'they') say things are supposed to get better with time. I have found that this is not always true. Granted, when particularly close to a problem, it can seem overwhelming... so it was almost a blessing that as a family member fell apart, I started the #100HappyDays challenge. The idea is to take a picture every day of something that makes me happy, which is supposed to not only make me happier but also appreciate those things and occasions even more... and after a week, a trend is emerging - my kids are most of the pictures!
Haha, like I didn't know that, right? But the girls, as stressed out and tired as they make me, give me larger moments than I had previously thought about... it's amazing to me how much I was complaining about something that they were doing wrong and not talking about all the awesome stuff that was Right! Like Peanut drives me mad at times with her tantrums and willful stubborn moments, but on the flip side she is such a good "Little Mommy" with cuddles and singing and changing pants of her favorite toys. BooBoo is practicing for Olympic Gymnastics whenever the Separation Anxiety doesn't have have her, but is the cuddliest and most adventuresome loveamuff ever - yes, the very things that freak me out and worry and bother me are the traits I love best... when she's not in danger or Mommy isn't trying to get something non-BooBoo-involving done.
My SIL's life imploded last week while her family was on vacation. Being the awesome brother Ryuu is, he tried to help. She has since surprised us with aspects and additional necessities and... such... to the point where I am stressed, he is worried about the girls and me, Peanut is getting TOO attached to her two very large puppies... and BooBoo was dragged around the other day for the sole purpose of attending to her dogs [vet and grooming appointments we didn't know about that needed my car since her rental was 'no dogs'] when the reason SIL came over in the first place was to finish cleaning the mess she made during her 2 night stay. Arg. Arg arg arg. Double-arg, Triple-arg, Migraine, Nightmares, Eye Twitch.
I've been learning how to use the Boye looms to make blankets and hats. Very Exciting projecting. The hard part is not including the frustration and negativity that I'm feeling, so I've been trying to increase the time spent in prayers and meditations. Of course, using the Serenity Prayer as my focus probably also helps a great deal... I think I need to also put a bigger priority into getting back into 'Shape' as I just passed a big mile stone without really trying and am starting to need the endorphins that being healthier brings, especially with the upheaval my family is and will undoubtedly continue going through in the near future...
The Progress Bar hasn't really changed at all this week - same-ish places on those pieces, worked on other knitting and crochet projects ~ hardest part working on anything is making sure totally clean so no dog hair or oil or anything transfers to the projects. As for games, not too much on that front either... between the crisis of SIL and normal "Two and Teething" day to day, the fact I sleep at all (though not well) is a miracle. Finished Banjo Kazooie - Mad Monster Mansion to end, but that's been my time all week. Sorry it's been so dull lately on this end; so much Mommy, so little ... anyway.
Peace, Love, and Pixie Stix!
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